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Monday, December 8, 2008

Feeling really so dwn now.. I just miss her so much..2 mths nt seeing her.I just can't stop all my thinking, & all tis r just making me feel so terrible. I just feel that I've not done my part, maybe I jus do nt have e qualities to be gd. Now i'm still trying to stop e bleeding from e deep cut. Stopping the bleed takes time & nt even mentioning e stage of recuperating.

Really feel like losing my memory nw.. At least that will stop all this pain. Thnks to Bob and Ed for accompanying me for my book out. Really appreciated all tht. This year has been a gd one for e 3 of us I guess. This morning we're still talking bout if there's a chance to erased our memory, or rather if 时间可以倒流 will we still be in our current situation. If there's really this chance, i wld still want 2 b with her. I've nothing to sae bout her, she's just so good to me, but i just let the chance to b together 2 slip away.

HER: 你做了你觉得对的选择. 你要知道因为我爱你，要你快乐开心，才决定放手。我也不会恨你。在我心目中你还是我最爱的女人。知道吗？你在我心里留下的记忆已经太深太深了。

BOB： Bro, thanks for acc me for all my book outs.. without u guys i dun know how to spend my weekends. But den i think i shd meet u lesser le.. u have to keep xy company. =)

XY: Sista, i dun know how u r feeling now. Dun felt neglected by Bob k? I will try not to meet him so often.. =)

ED: Leaving SG in 10 more daes. Have u done what u r supposed to do? dun let urself down. Since u really like her, go for it and at least u know u've tried even if it fails. Dun b afraid of the outcome. Build up your confidence, or else i know u won't leave SG being happy. Think bout what we have talk bout these 2 daes. Gd luck bro..

此时此刻的心情就让这首歌来带过。。。。。。。。。。。。

曲名：我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

@ 2:00 AM

我还记得们的约定。。说好的幸福呢？

Friday, November 21, 2008

我们说好的幸福呢？爱对你来说已经淡了，梦也远了。你再不舍，那些爱过的感觉都太深刻。我都还记得。

我回来了。始终无法把这个Blog遗弃，也无法放弃她。对我来说时间只会让我更想念她，而不是疗心里的伤。阿姨发了简讯给我，她说：“ 你知道吗? 爱情生活只占我们人生的一小部分，失恋的心情我知道不好受，不过给她一个机会，同时也给自己一个机会！要记住你边还有很多关心你的人，尤其是你妈妈。她看你做什么都提不起劲，他好担心你！失落，伤心一段日子后，就要收拾心情，重新出发。"

我也好希望我能重新站起来，可是就是无法做到。我连做梦都会梦见她，起来知道一切都是假的，那天的心情又会低落。和她在一起我真的很开心，真的好舍不得。和她相处了那么久，跟她身边的每一个人都有了感情，不是说忘就忘。=（

@ 4:08 PM

有多么痛的领悟！

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

今天sms了她。说因为爱她所以决定放手. 其实，我根本就无法那么做。我只希望她开心。我不想要她觉得我一直死缠着她不放。没人知道，也不会了解我现在的心情。我真的好想好想和她再来一次，可是她再也不会给我机会了。这一切，只能怨自己。她长大了，她说我们在一起没有结果，没有未来。好伤心。可是我知道我没有爱错。我好想做出一番成就，让她知道我们是可以的。

一起走过的这五年里, 经历了许多事情,有欢笑也有泪水。我现在只能静静的不想影响到她。也明白对于已经放手的她来说：我对你的爱会是一种负担。只要想到她时，眼睛就不听使唤的流下泪水，现在也是。妈今晚煮的是她说过她最喜欢的，吃着吃着又流下伤心的泪。

我没有放弃过，多么希望她能回心转意。我爱你！！！

think no one will see e post, cuz my blog is dead!!!

@ 5:08 AM

I LOVE YOU!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

这两首歌的歌词正在讲述我现在的心情。

I Love You By Wei Lian
I love you 所以只能说声对不起
任何借口都没有
I love you 已来不及好好去珍惜
后悔很多
不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎原是你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经冻结
多想能再和你梦里爱多一次
很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你想你离得无反顾
你心上纹着我给你的伤
对我绝美的惩罚
想忘了已无法原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

I love you 对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐
I love you 好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多
不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎原是你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经冻结
多想能再和你梦里爱多一次
很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你是挽不回的错误
你心上纹着我给你的伤
对我绝美的惩罚
想忘了我无法原来曾经拥有过
远比失去痛苦

我心上勇敢烙着你的伤
那么绝美的惩罚
想忘了我无法原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

Till The End by 斗鱼

All this precise moment
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That’s holding me all night
I don’t know how I found you
I am thankful that I have
That I have a love so true
To hold to keep to share
In my heart
I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I’ll always be with you until the very end
In this world
there is no place i'd rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through the all
I know you come to see
That you are the one till the end
(We’ll always be till the end)

All my friends around me
Say you’ll be gone too soon
Baby I’m gona make them see
We’ll find out way back home

@ 10:45 PM

24th OCT'08 - POP

Has being months since I last blog. This day marks e end of my basic training in Home Team Academy. Training for this parade was really tiring. Was really hoping that she could come for my POP. But she can't. I dun blame her, its my own doings that brought this. Initially I thought that no one was coming cuz my dad has to work, but my mum did. Wasn't really happy on that day. =(

@ 1:13 AM

Iron Man

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Went town with dear and ks todae.. Walked from Wisma to Bugis Street. (yes! walked). had dinner at Bugis and walked back to Cine to catch e 730pm - Iron Man. Show was nice. But doze off at e beginning.. hahaa.. working tomorrow.. siian..

@ 8:35 AM

Labour Day - Lao Pa Sat

Friday, May 2, 2008

Met up with E45D breakfast gang todae for dinner at Lao Pa Sat. Order only a few dishes, and was realli Ex larh.. spend around $76.

On the way to Lau Pa Sat...

Malini & Diana

Malini, Diana, Hadi, Barnabas, Me & Nisa

After the dinner, we wanted to go over to esplanade but some felt far. So, we sat at Raffles Place, chit chat -thinking of when's e next outing & where to go while eating the Doughnuts tat Hadi bought.

Donuts - 3 for $1. . .

Tis pic is cool!!

- Pinky-Orange Giant -

Came to a conclusion, to go Sentosa on Vesak day. Diana, Hadi, and Malini got to leave first, while e rest stayed, waiting to Yu Hong. Hang out at Singapore River, and den to Mac to chill. Left the place at around 1115pm.

@ 7:45 PM