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HELP ME UP!

2008-12-08T02:00:00.000-08:00

Feeling really so dwn now.. I just miss her so much..2 mths nt seeing her.I just can't stop all my thinking, & all tis r just making me feel so terrible. I just feel that I've not done my part, maybe I jus do nt have e qualities to be gd. Now i'm still trying to stop e bleeding from e deep cut. Stopping the bleed takes time & nt even mentioning e stage of recuperating.

Really feel like losing my memory nw.. At least that will stop all this pain. Thnks to Bob and Ed for accompanying me for my book out. Really appreciated all tht. This year has been a gd one for e 3 of us I guess. This morning we're still talking bout if there's a chance to erased our memory, or rather if 时间可以倒流 will we still be in our current situation. If there's really this chance, i wld still want 2 b with her. I've nothing to sae bout her, she's just so good to me, but i just let the chance to b together 2 slip away.

HER: 你做了你觉得对的选择. 你要知道因为我爱你，要你快乐开心，才决定放手。我也不会恨你。在我心目中你还是我最爱的女人。知道吗？你在我心里留下的记忆已经太深太深了。

BOB： Bro, thanks for acc me for all my book outs.. without u guys i dun know how to spend my weekends. But den i think i shd meet u lesser le.. u have to keep xy company. =)

XY: Sista, i dun know how u r feeling now. Dun felt neglected by Bob k? I will try not to meet him so often.. =)

ED: Leaving SG in 10 more daes. Have u done what u r supposed to do? dun let urself down. Since u really like her, go for it and at least u know u've tried even if it fails. Dun b afraid of the outcome. Build up your confidence, or else i know u won't leave SG being happy. Think bout what we have talk bout these 2 daes. Gd luck bro..

此时此刻的心情就让这首歌来带过。。。。。。。。。。。。

曲名：我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

我还记得们的约定。。说好的幸福呢？

2008-11-21T16:08:00.000-08:00

我们说好的幸福呢？爱对你来说已经淡了，梦也远了。你再不舍，那些爱过的感觉都太深刻。我都还记得。

我回来了。始终无法把这个Blog遗弃，也无法放弃她。对我来说时间只会让我更想念她，而不是疗心里的伤。阿姨发了简讯给我，她说：“ 你知道吗? 爱情生活只占我们人生的一小部分，失恋的心情我知道不好受，不过给她一个机会，同时也给自己一个机会！要记住你边还有很多关心你的人，尤其是你妈妈。她看你做什么都提不起劲，他好担心你！失落，伤心一段日子后，就要收拾心情，重新出发。"

我也好希望我能重新站起来，可是就是无法做到。我连做梦都会梦见她，起来知道一切都是假的，那天的心情又会低落。和她在一起我真的很开心，真的好舍不得。和她相处了那么久，跟她身边的每一个人都有了感情，不是说忘就忘。=（

有多么痛的领悟！

2008-10-29T05:08:00.001-07:00

今天sms了她。说因为爱她所以决定放手. 其实，我根本就无法那么做。我只希望她开心。我不想要她觉得我一直死缠着她不放。没人知道，也不会了解我现在的心情。我真的好想好想和她再来一次，可是她再也不会给我机会了。这一切，只能怨自己。她长大了，她说我们在一起没有结果，没有未来。好伤心。可是我知道我没有爱错。我好想做出一番成就，让她知道我们是可以的。

一起走过的这五年里, 经历了许多事情,有欢笑也有泪水。我现在只能静静的不想影响到她。也明白对于已经放手的她来说：我对你的爱会是一种负担。只要想到她时，眼睛就不听使唤的流下泪水，现在也是。妈今晚煮的是她说过她最喜欢的，吃着吃着又流下伤心的泪。

我没有放弃过，多么希望她能回心转意。我爱你！！！

think no one will see e post, cuz my blog is dead!!!

I LOVE YOU!

2008-10-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

这两首歌的歌词正在讲述我现在的心情。

I Love You By Wei Lian
I love you 所以只能说声对不起
任何借口都没有
I love you 已来不及好好去珍惜
后悔很多
不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎原是你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经冻结
多想能再和你梦里爱多一次
很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你想你离得无反顾
你心上纹着我给你的伤
对我绝美的惩罚
想忘了已无法原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

I love you 对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐
I love you 好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多
不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎原是你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经冻结
多想能再和你梦里爱多一次
很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你是挽不回的错误
你心上纹着我给你的伤
对我绝美的惩罚
想忘了我无法原来曾经拥有过
远比失去痛苦

我心上勇敢烙着你的伤
那么绝美的惩罚
想忘了我无法原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

Till The End by 斗鱼

All this precise moment
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That’s holding me all night
I don’t know how I found you
I am thankful that I have
That I have a love so true
To hold to keep to share
In my heart
I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I’ll always be with you until the very end
In this world
there is no place i'd rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through the all
I know you come to see
That you are the one till the end
(We’ll always be till the end)

All my friends around me
Say you’ll be gone too soon
Baby I’m gona make them see
We’ll find out way back home

24th OCT'08 - POP

2008-10-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

Has being months since I last blog. This day marks e end of my basic training in Home Team Academy. Training for this parade was really tiring. Was really hoping that she could come for my POP. But she can't. I dun blame her, its my own doings that brought this. Initially I thought that no one was coming cuz my dad has to work, but my mum did. Wasn't really happy on that day. =(

Iron Man

2008-05-04T08:35:00.000-07:00

Went town with dear and ks todae.. Walked from Wisma to Bugis Street. (yes! walked). had dinner at Bugis and walked back to Cine to catch e 730pm - Iron Man. Show was nice. But doze off at e beginning.. hahaa.. working tomorrow.. siian..

Labour Day - Lao Pa Sat

2008-05-02T19:45:00.000-07:00

Met up with E45D breakfast gang todae for dinner at Lao Pa Sat. Order only a few dishes, and was realli Ex larh.. spend around $76.

On the way to Lau Pa Sat...

Malini & Diana

Malini, Diana, Hadi, Barnabas, Me & Nisa

After the dinner, we wanted to go over to esplanade but some felt far. So, we sat at Raffles Place, chit chat -thinking of when's e next outing & where to go while eating the Doughnuts tat Hadi bought.

Donuts - 3 for $1. . .

Tis pic is cool!!

- Pinky-Orange Giant -

Came to a conclusion, to go Sentosa on Vesak day. Diana, Hadi, and Malini got to leave first, while e rest stayed, waiting to Yu Hong. Hang out at Singapore River, and den to Mac to chill. Left the place at around 1115pm.

30-04-08

2008-05-02T18:06:00.000-07:00

Met up with Bob, Xy & Dear todae at around 5pm. Went to Parco's Cold Storage to get fruits for my cake as dear is making one for me. Johnny, Roma's Deli boss helped to prepare the base already. Thank lots.. Went over to Roma's Deli to "decorate" e cake with fruits, & also to have our dinner . That's dear and my workplace. =)

Fully vegetarian, no garlic, no onions, no egg Italian restaurant.

We're putting these!!!!

Process of making cake - 1/3 (spreading cream)

2/3 - Placing e fruits..

While they were placing them - I SAW THIS!!! dear did that... hahah...

Tada!! Fruity 21 -by Dear & xY.. Job Done!

Thank you TWINS...

Ya, I've got to sae tis.. While they were making e cake, tis person has done nothing. He only has "Pata, Pata, Pata, Pon" in his mind. Tsunami fats a.k.a Toong. hahaha...

Our Dinner.. Baked Chicken Mushroom, Alio Olio, Chesse Mushroom Spaghetti & Thai Prawn Spaghetti

The Twins that I'm talking about!!

Reserve a 6-8paxs room at partyworld woodlands, meeting Huimin & BF, Yuting and Rina there. Reach at about 930pm, and was told that they've let e room out as we didn't answer their call. No choice but to get a BIG room, but only e 4 of us inside. Waited for e rest to come as they will b late. But ended up only Huimin & BF came as the other 2 can't make it. N tis is realli the most xpensive "K-ing" that I've ever gone to. $40 per pax.

HIGH!!!

- Cut Cake -

Birthday Celebration

2008-05-01T10:00:00.000-07:00

Finally I can sit dwn to blog.. Dun have e time these few days as I'm working. Pardon me "Blog viewers"... haA...

Celebrated my birthday on 26th, Sat at my place. Did lots of preparation work. Especially my room.. Gotten myself a new bed & study table. Ya, i know i dun need one at e moment, but its time to change one. My parents wanted me to hold e celebration at hm, cuz it will be easier for my relatives.

Thanks all for coming, especially the three very late ones. went for present hunting thats y so late! haha..

E cake..

**Relatives from Father's side **

My family & Grandma - who took tis pic?? so blur larh...

Aunties & Uncles...

Cousins....

**Relatives from Mum's side **

Look @ Eugene Face - Stunned.

Sry Carmen, tis e only pic that has all my friends.. haa

I like tis pic!!~

Thanks to Bob, Chew Ks & Dear arh...

30-04

Shall blog till here todae.. Very tired.. still got to work tomorrow.. will finished the rest on Sat.. to be continue. . . . . . . . .

2008-04-07T19:37:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Edmund Kong... Now i seems to like Abercrombie & Fitch. That's why this brand has appear on my wishlist.

Windrush Green..

7th Aprill'08 - Sentosa

2008-04-07T18:52:00.000-07:00

Went out around 8am to dear's place, but got held up by this accident at CCK mrt station. So being a typical Singaporean, went up to the platform to KPO. One guy drop down the track. Train service to J.E and Marina Bay were terminated. No choice, took 302 to her place. It was so crowded at the interchange.

Waited for the train to resume its operation before leaving for Sentosa. Was raining quite heavily when we alighted from the tram at Palawan beach.. SO.. the romantic Us took out the mat to shelter us all the way to a sheltered shelter. hahaha...

Tried the skyride. $6 for one way. Find it quite ex after i got on the seat. But nvm larh, for the experience.

Tickets..

Skyride.....

Best Wishes To Jeslin and Partner

2008-04-06T10:05:00.000-07:00

Today, a big day for Jeslin and her partner Lawrence. This dinner has also become a gathering for us. Get to see some long lost faces.

Crystal, Hao Zhen, Huimin & Yuting

The Gang - Jerren, Xavier, Edmund, Me, & Bobby

Cynthia and Hao Zhen..

MISS LIM & MR TOONG.

Again MISS LIM, but with MR TEO.

Bad photographer (TOONG) with a bad shot - small boy with MISS LIM again.. Miss LIM realli 大小通吃！！

Again !!! with MR LIU.

MR HO.

Me and Hao Zhen!

Flower Toong, Huimin and ME.

Recieved Enlistment Letter

2008-04-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

Finally going to be enlisted!!! Received letter yesterday! I'm going to be enlist into Singapore Police Force on 10th June. Barnabas is also enlisted to Police Force, at least got company. Quite lucky to be posted there. Police Academy (PA) is just a few stops away from my place. Heard that training is quite relac. Cannot run away from police - NPCC in secondary, & now enlisted to police force.

Meantime, have to train up. =(

小情歌

2008-03-21T20:28:00.001-07:00

小情歌
詞：青峰　　曲：青峰　　唱：蘇打綠　　原調：D

C____________Em__F__C_______________Em
這是一首簡單的小情歌　唱著人們心腸的曲折
______F___G________Em__Am_F_____Fm___G
我想我很快樂　當有你的溫熱　腳邊的空氣轉了
C____________Em__F__C_______________Em
這是一首簡單的小情歌　唱著我們心頭的白鴿
______F___G________Em__Am_F_____Fm___G
我想我很適合　當一個歌頌者　青春在風中飄著

______C_______________________Am_________G
你知道　就算大雨讓這座城市顛倒　我會給你懷抱
______F___________Em_______F_____________G
受不了　看見你背影來到　寫下我　度秒如年難挨的離騷
C_____________________Am_________G
就算整個世界被寂寞綁票　我也不會奔跑
______F___________Em_______F_____________G_______C
逃不了　最後誰也都蒼老　寫下我　時間和琴聲交錯的城堡

Accident!!!

2008-03-15T20:39:00.000-07:00

Sway day. Meet with a traffic accident on Thursday, 14th March along PIE towards Jurong. Vehicle skidded. Luckily passengers are all safe. Phew!! But there goes my DSLR camera. =D

CANON EOS 400D!!! WHEN WILL U BE MINE?

2008-03-11T03:50:00.000-07:00

Really cannot wait to get this Canon EOS 400D DSLR camera!!! Damm cool larh!! I must get it before my birthday. Anyway get on 30/04 also nt bad larh.. haah.. After getting this camera I would definately be asking Amir and Barnabas out to take photos.

FRONT!

BACK!

This month very siian.. Has been working at BatamFast, dun feel like working anymore cuz the system is F* up. haha.. see how things goes. Hopefully april can get a new job. =D

TAIWAN CONTINUE. . . .

2008-03-04T17:53:00.000-08:00

Being able to travel with dear was great, doing shopping!! Yes, shopping. I dun really shop for clothes in S'pore as I think guys clothes are Xpensive. After Jiu Fen, we went to Shilin Night Market and there is where I "whacked" most of my money on. Ok, enjoy the pics...

Shilin Night Market. The Night is still young!! 6plus only, so the street is still quiet.

Hot Sugar Cane Drink, anybody?

MRT - Their Single Trip Ticket!! RFID Token.

OH ya, their ppl are mostly considerate, when on the escalator they will all keep to their right, and left side are for those who are rushing. No way, Singapore can adopt this!!!

Busy City Life - No matter how packed e platform is, ppl will still queue while waiting for train. Power la Taipei!!

Their seats, 8 per side, compared to S'pore, we have 10 seats in a row.

The seats in Dark blue is their Priority Seats. Even when the train is packed these seats are normally empty catered to those who needed them. =)

3P 霸王冰。。 Simply means KING of ICE..

Nv eat "ICE" = nv visited Taiwan!!! hahaha....

She's @ sesame street!!!

Look @ e words!! =D

SUPERB TAIWAN!!!!

2008-03-02T02:20:00.000-08:00

Went on a 5D4N trip to Taipei with Dear & Family. 1 Day Tour plus 4 days Free & Easy. Set off from HER place on Monday 25th Feb at around 530A.m. Yes!!! 530A.m when our flight was at 1P.m. *haha...HER Dad loves the airport.

...CHANGI AIRPORT...

TAIPEI here I come!!!

Taken with her BRO, Keng Soon, a.k.a white tiger!! He's e one who causes me not to have enough sleep!

At T3 with HER sleepy face!!!

Looked @ how happy she is... =D

On our way to TAIWAN...

...TAIWAN...

Reached Taiwan at 530P.m, and headed to our hotel. Afterwhich, went for our late dinner and "comb" e area near our hotel.

...FIRST DAY... (TOUR- C.K.S Memorial Hall, Museum, Jiu Fen, ....)

Such pose could be seen in typical TV programmes. Hahaha.. No choice, it was raining.

C.K.S Memorial Hall.

Changing Shift!!!

Dear & her Mum..

BF & GF? BRO & SIS?

Its v cold there, but cuz I want a nicer shot, so left only the cardigan.

Outside Museum...

This was taken at "Jiu Fen" - hilltop, temperature was much lower than normal.

Hot Air.....

More to go... Patient!!! Have to prepare for work. Will update soon.

Back Pain!!!

2008-02-18T07:53:00.000-08:00

My backache dun seems to go away!!! The pain is back to ACTION again.. damm.... going to chinese physician molo at Kovan. hopefully the treatment isn't as "shiok" compared to the one I went previously. *super pain obviously!!!*

Meeting Dear after her exams tomorrow! She's considered to be 90% free as she said that for the last paper, on that dae study also can. *Confident seh* She's still studying for her paper nw.. Heard from her that she has 33 tutorial to study!! But she covered 13 only!! nvm... YOU CAN DO IT!!! JIAYOU!

Going for Chalet at PASIR RIS with E45D on Wed..Will upload PICS after I'm back frm there. Also... Can wait to go TAIWAN with dear.. =)

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FYP PRESENTATION OVER LO!!

2008-01-30T05:33:00.000-08:00

Today is a BIG day for all RP SEG year 3 graduating students. Its our FYP presentation, reached at 830am and got our booth set up and getting ready for the last battle. We were the first team to be assess, and I think it was quite an ok presentation. THANK YOU team mates. Its really nice working with you guys for the past few months.And also not forgetting DEAR!! She has being wonderful, very understanding, knowing that I need to chiong FYP for the past few days so nv meet her. =).

This is where our classrooms are!! E4! With My FYP teammates.

So SWAY! Got tis Singapore (little red dot a.k.a pimple on my face)

Portable Blood Pressure Monitoring!!

Taken with Our Project Supervisor, Karen at our booth!

The 2 ULTIMATE teams!!

HUI WEN & ME!!!

The MAN!!

Happy 19th Birthday Dear

2008-01-26T16:54:00.000-08:00

Was Dear's Birthday 2 days ago, hope she had a wonderful birthday. She's realli cute I can sae.. I gave her, her birthday present earlier cuz she came to meet me and her bro after her school on the day I bought her present. Gave a her "fake present", it was a zinc bag. She told us that the bag was very nice, cuz she didn't saw e zinc logo initially, but when she realized that ugly logo there, she like almost cried larh.. Dear's so sian diao, cuz if she were to bring e bag to school confirm get her gang laugh @ her.. Hahaha...

Harry's Bar

I wish to lose 5kg!!!!

Dia & Vanessa..

Girl's Power...

Cut Cake!! =D

Oh not forgetting my FYP team-mates too. Did the project with Yu Hong, Jimmy & Michelle yesterday in school outside Agora Hall 2. Damm hot larh.. Michelle and me was supposed to do the posters design and the 2 older Man, troubleshooting. Mic left school earlier cuz she was tired. Left with the 3 Musketeers to work on the project and we left school at around 915pm for dinner.

Almost Finished Product!!!

Batam Trip =)

2008-01-19T17:59:00.000-08:00

Went on a trip with Dear to Batam Centre on SAT, 19th Jan. Although we only went for 5hrs I think its enough. Hahahaha.. I was in charge of $$$, so whatever SHE buy I have to calculate how much is it in SGD. *Lucky I brought calculator* The value of their money was so different; like so "BIG" like that. Quote an example, a necklace cost 7000 there, but convert its only $1.05. Ya, CHEAP right. Although environment nt very good, I am satisfied to be able to go on a trip with dear. =D. Enjoy The PICS....

B4, going out! At HER place.

TWIST!!! SHE's happy cuz can go Batam with me!! *Obviously I'm happy too* =D

"HE" ferried us to Batam Centre

I told u SHE was happy!!! *FERRY's Departing*

I LOVE HER!!!

YA! we r sitting outside, enjoying sea breeze...

Notice some words at the back?? SHE was suppose to take them, but ended up focusing on e crack!! But, still quite a nice PIC. hahah

Their phone network..

MEGA MALL @ Batam Centre!

This is the ORIGINAL POLO RALPH LAUREN!!!

- BUT - I nv sae this is FAKE!! this is made locally.

Shop until LIKE THAT!!

their TAXI, U WANT TO TAKE THEM ???

ALRIGHT!!! enough of shopping, Lets GO!!

Last PIC there oki??

BYE BATAM!!

K.O.

Went with this, ...

AND back with tis! ...

2008-01-16T04:45:00.000-08:00

Have to stay back everyday next week to finish up our work for FYP.
Last lap to go, Jiiayou teammates!!!
Heard from dear in the morning that she might be ponning school next Fri with her friends to Pulau Ubin. Was of course asked to join larh!!! Called her just now and told her that I'll not be able to make it next Friday as I have FYP. She told me not to be lame!! Was very blur of course, dun know why she said that too. Den she said next Fri is her birthday den I say not free. Of course I remembered her birthday, 25th Jan!! Just nv take note that its next week. Ooops.. Sry Dear!! Have already thought of what to buy for her, just dun know whether I can find a suitable one mahx..

Going Batam Centre with dear tis Sat.. Wooo... First time going out of e country with her. Can't wait..

WelcomEex....

2008-01-13T01:26:00.000-08:00

Hello ppl.. Welcomex to my Blog & reading tis veri 1st post of mine. Wondering why I cr8 this blog???

I'm helping dear to edit her blog skin but knw nuts bout the codings in blog, so thought of creating one to play with it and also bcuz I'm REALLY BORED. SHE has BIO paper tomorrow, but she's studying in her dreams. hahaha.. Hope she can PASS her paper tomorrow. =)

PISSED OFF!!!!

Yesterday a lady called my hp looking for "CHUA CHU KANG". I confirmed with her again e name, and YES she said its CCK. She asked me if I had recently brought my phone to NOKIA for servicing and was told that CHUA CHU KANG was the name printed on the service chit. Wau.. I did nt realise until she called me.

This was what happened. I brought my hp down for servicing at Causeway Pt on WED after my FYP meeting and e time was already 730pm. Waited till 9 plus till I was being serve by this young guy. Told him, from what I understand from M1, I could actually get a 1 to 1 exchange if my phone has any problem within 7 days of purchase. Den he talk like so .... in broken Eng, saying NoNoNO, confirm dun have. Sony Ericsson, Samsung LG also dun give such promises. Not I want to comment on his eng larh, but realli CMI. He also told me to be very careful when closing the battery cover as many of his customers came to complaint about the crack.

Because he was dressed in a White Collar T which was different from others, I asked him whether he's a part time. Indeed, he was, and even told me it was his first day at work. WTF!! "U work less than 24Hr, u got so many customer coming in with the same model of HP as i'm using meh, den u know Sony Ericsson, Samsung and LG dun give 1 to 1 exchange meh?"

Tis guy here is 3 years younger than me, 18, waiting for his O'lvl. The way he talk like 3 years older than me. N he was the one who typed my name as "CHUA CHU KANG". He was also the one who took my warranty card and nv return it. ARrrrgggggg. The best thing is that he can still asked me how long I've waited, thought he wanted to apologise for the long waiting time, he did not but can still tell me, "YOU VERY LUCKY ALREADY, I GOT CUSTOMER WHO WAITED FOR 2 HOURS!". dot dot dot.